since my last confession...on DA lol...well life is full of surprises and let downs. But alas I am alive and thats fuckin great. I have all my motor function and 5 senses...i love it. Thank God. Im alone again. But its okay, this time. I miss her and love her (duh) but its actually ok this time...going on this whole cycle of "see you later." Maybe im getting use to it, maybe i really did want it this time. WHo know i love life and live for myself, my family, and my friends that truly love me and are honest with me 100%. I can only be as happy as i can be at the moment. finally accepting that there isnt going to be another chance and there isnt going to be no Moanna (inside thing). as much as i would love for things to work out this is the first time i admit to myself that they most likely wont. but who knows right. sigh. well love yall peeps